Bright lights,dark souls

Το χιονόνερο που πέφτει εκνευριστικά είναι και ο μόνος μου σύντροφος.Γυρίζω σπίτι έχοντας καλωσορίσει τον καινούριο χρόνο, για άλλη μια φορά,μέσα σε χώρους με εκκωφαντική μουσική, φώτα που τυφλώνουν,ανθρώπους που δεν μιλούν.
Το γκραφιτι στον τοίχο απέναντι σαρκάζει :"Με πόσα λαμπιόνια θα στολίσεις φέτος την θλίψη σου;" Κάνω να χαμογελάσω αλλά το χαμόγελο παγώνει στο στόμα.Η αλήθεια μπορεί να ελευθερώνει αλλά πονάει κιόλας.Δεν ξέρω αν είναι η μοναξιά ή η απελπισία που υπερτερεί μέσα μου.Ή η πεισματική μου άρνηση να δεχτώ την ήττα μου/μας ,παρόλα τα υπέρ της φαινόμενα.
Παρακολουθώ τα τεκταινόμενα γύρω μου με ελαφρώς κυνικό και αδιάφορο ,πλέον,τρόπο.Έχω σταματήσει να διασκεδάζω μαζί τους πια.
"Ερωτευμένους" να ψάχνουν για one night stand ,παντρεμένους που σκοτώνουν για μια ώρα ελευθερίας μακριά από την σύντροφο της ζωής τους,παντρεμένες στα πρόθυρα νευρικής-και όχι μόνο-κρίσης, αγοράκια με ύφος δον Ζουάν-αγορασμένο με τα λεφτά του μπαμπά τους-,κοριτσάκια -wannabe playmate of the year- που ψάχνουν για το γιατρό που θα γιατρέψει την ματαιοδοξία τους.
Και στη μέση εμείς.Να περιμένουμε τον έρωτα της ζωής μας να πέσει σαν μετεωρίτης στα κεφάλια μας και να μας διαλύσει.Αλλά ,δυστυχώς,οι μετεωρίτες καίγονται πολύ πριν φτάσουν στην γη-συνήθως..

Winter

Freezing cold all around
finds the way to the heart
with no resistance,no fight
unconditional defeat
Words turn to ice
feelings turn to pieces
Dark night embraces my soul
chill down my spine
Memories of you start a fire
keep my soul alive
but for how long?
Another love in vain
another pain attack coming fast
I surrender..
Sorrow covers all just like snow
freezing my mind
Too many useless words
too much painfull feelings
too many people around
too much loneliness inside
For a moment I thought
I saw your face
but it was just the moonlight
reflecting on the snow

Flow my tears...

-That's too sad for me,he said.
-But sadness is a good feeling,she said.
-Not for me..
-Just think...you can only feel sad if you 've been in love at first..
then comes the tears..the breaking up..and then the sorrow...and finally love again.
-Then..it's better not to fall in love in the first place..it's so simple..isn't?
-That's why you don't love animals?
-No,that's why I don't fall in love with animals..they live so little time..and then they die..or just go away one day..and then I get sad...so think what will happen with a human being...
-But we all gonna die in the end...
-Eventually yes,but since then why do I have to feel the pain again and again,all the time?
-To feel alive...maybe?
-And why must I torture myself just to feel alive ? just for the sake of life itself?As you said we all gonna die..death is the winner in the end...he is the permanent situation.
-But love is simply that:to see your loved ones to grow happier as you fade away..
-Then,maybe I'm not in the mood to just fade away right now..I'd rather burn out...

The wall

We met accidentally
I fell in love with you before the moon rise
you said you had to leave
I said don't leave now
We run through the alleys
hide in the dark night
kissed you under the moonlight
your face was glowing
I tried to reach your soul
cover the scars
the bleeding heart
but you were somewhere else
lost in the labyrinths of Pan
out of reach-out of touch
My dreams were smashed along with my heart
on the wall around you

Fear & loathing in Wonderland

Alice is lost
walking through the forest
mushrooms taste nice
reality looks less ugly
people less frightening
First it was the loss
then came the love
Trying to find a way out
of the misery and pain
Searching for peace of mind
she met the White Rabbit
They traveled many miles
across the garden maze
She saw many beautiful places
fell in love with the White Knight
but deep inside she knew
that something was wrong
Off with her head, the Red Queen ordered
and Alice suddenly knew
Eternity was a lie
but she had bought it so faithfully
like all of us
Only she could save herself
but she have to feed her head with knowledge
and her heart with love
instead of those colored pills

Virtual

They walk with their dull faces
hiding themselves behind a wall of lies
Smiling at you while they prepare for the attack
stabbing you when you cry for help
crying for help when the fear takes hold
Counting emotions as money
thinking money as life
Craving for power
for it's power they fear
Let them hide their feelings
let them live in their virtual world
someday they will awake
but it'll be too late
Cos money and power can't take away the pain and loneliness

Caught in a web

I was flying above the rainbow
my heart was happy
I met the girl with the red hair
her smile made my soul revive
We talked and laughed for days
nighttime came too soon
Days passed by like a river
we were lost in the rush of the city
Lives too lonely to be uncovered
hearts too broken to open
bodies too scared to be touched
souls too tortured to mend
eyes too red to stop crying
Storm clouds gathering fast
life awaits its victims
as another dreamer's caught in the web

Blinded

Living a lie -all your life-

believe what you've been told
Crawling along the line of power and wealth
hope for something to be thrown to you
Spending your body and soul
think it's alright
Everybody does the same
why not you?
Dreaming of the silver shining Knight
he comes only for you
Falling in love once again
this time it's for real
Fallen apart once again
the knight has left you behind
Lost in the maze of your mind
can't leave it all behind
Blinded by the shining armor
you leave your life disappear
Time passes you by like wind through the leaves
but the knight hasn't come back yet...

Fool's Moon

The night has fallen
full moon in the sky
you say you loved me
but did you really ?
and for how long ?
I opened my heart
but you couldn't see inside it
or you didn't want to
You gave me hope
made me dream again
but you said my skin was too thick
to see under it
yet, I was a ball of fire
and by fire I've burnt
strange thoughts in my mind
alone I walk in the shadows
with your image in my eyes
A new day will rise
still, the fool moon is haunting us..

Night scene

Touching the vein in your neck

feels like a snake tale
I said I love you
you said don't speak
silence covers all
Kissing your lips
feels like electric shock
My arms around you
deny to leave you
Your arms around me
warming my soul
You kissed me goodbye
my heart starts bleeding
I kissed you farewell
I won't ever hurt you

Shelter Me - Fates Warning

Talk, talk to me, tell me your secrets
Speak, speak the words I need to hear
Help to conquer this growing fear
And when the winds of change come blowing through
And all the things I thought I needed
Go sailing out of view . . .

Shelter, shelter me
When I need someone to turn to
I turn and I lie within
The light of you
Shelter, shelter me
When I need somewhere to run to
I run and I hide within
The shelter of you

Walk, walk with me through this darkness
Teach, teach me to see the light
Help me to see beyond this night
And when the sunset hides sea from shore
And all the things I thought I needed
Don't mean that much anymore . . .

Shelter, shelter me
When I need someone to turn to
I turn and I lie within
The light of you
Shelter, shelter me
When I need somewhere to run to
I run and I hide within
The shelter of you

With this darkness all around
Tomorrow is hard to see
But I will face this night
If you'll shelter, shelter, me

Face The Fear - Fates Warning

Here I am, looking out looking in
My eyes are open, my mind's closed tight
I believe I know, I need to let go
And I know I'm wrong but I think I'm right
So I shut you out
And hear what I want to hear
And hide in my opinions
Afraid to face my fear
Face the fear

There you are, reaching in reaching out
Your arms are open, your heart's closed tight
You believe you know you have to let go
And you think you won't but you know you might
So you close your eyes
And pretend you're no here
And hide in your secrets
Afraid to face your fear
Face the fear

And you close your eyes
I hear what I want to hear
And we hide in our suspicions
Afraid to face the fear
Face the fear

And I shut you out
You pretend you're not here
And we hide in our loneliness
Afraid to face the fear
Face the fear

Here we are, looking in reaching out
Together and alone
Facing the fear we're afraid to show
Facing the fear of letting go..

In the dark side

Running in circles
trying to escape
searching for the light
moving in and out
smashing your face
standing up again
keeping going all the way
...but where to?
Flowing like a river
floating in space
traveling into the labyrinth
of your confused mind
Tired of being lonely
sick of being fooled
wanting something more
but never getting none
if you could only meet me
in the dark side of my mind..

Insomnia/Amnesia

Κι όμως δεν θέλαμε να καταλήξουμε εδώ.Ίσως να είμαστε κάπως υπέρμετρα αισιόδοξοι,λίγο αιθεροβάμονες-ποιός δεν είναι άλλωστε στα 18 του- αλλά το πιστεύαμε πως αυτός ο κόσμος μπορεί και πρέπει να αλλάξει.Πως οι προκαταλήψεις και οι φόβοι που κατέτρεχαν τους ανθρώπους θα μετασχηματίζονταν-μαγικά;- σε μια απέραντη ειδυλλιακή κατάσταση όπου η αλληλεγγύη,η αυτοθυσία,η κατανόηση,η ανοχή,ακόμη και η αγάπη-αν υπάρχει ακόμη ως έννοια κατανοητή- θα βασίλευαν εις τους αιώνες...
Οι μαγικές εποχές όμως έχουν περάσει ανεπιστρεπτή και εμείς δεν λέγαμε να το συνειδητοποιήσουμε.Ακόμη κι όταν τρώγαμε τα μούτρα μας,ακόμη κι όταν όλοι οι οιωνοί ήταν κραυγαλέα κακοί..
Και μέσα σ'αυτόν τον κυκεώνα από γεγονότα,απογοητεύσεις,ματαιώσεις,αρχίσαμε σιγά σιγά να μετασχηματιζόμαστε εμείς αντι για τον κόσμο γύρω μας.
Αρχίσαμε να μπαίνουμε στο καλούπι που μας είχαν ετοιμάσει καιρό τώρα αλλά είμαστε πολύ υπερόπτες για να το δούμε.
Ήρθαν οι γάμοι,τα παιδιά,οι υποχρεώσεις που τρέχουν,η δουλειές,τα δάνεια..
Και έτσι όλοι έχουμε κάποια δικαιολογία με την οποία κατευνάζουμε την συνείδησή μας για να μπορέσουμε να κοιμηθούμε ήσυχοι-καθώς μας περιμένει μια δύσκολη μέρα αύριο!
Παρασυρμένοι από το ποτάμι του ανταγωνισμού για την επιβίωση,πηδήσαμε ,κι εμείς με την σειρά μας,στη βάρκα του συμβιβασμού.Η λήθη έκανε την δουλειά της μεθοδικά...
Κατανοητό βέβαια,ίσως πουν πολλοί,αλλά εγώ δεν μπορώ να κοιμηθώ με τέτοιες δικαιολογίες.
Άλλη μια "ελπιδοφόρα" γενιά μεταβίβασε τις ελπίδες της στην ..επόμενη!Είμαστε σίγουροι πως τα παιδιά μας θα κάνουν την ανατροπή που δεν μπορέσαμε να κάνουμε εμείς..Τα ανατρέφουμε με "υψηλά ιδανικά" για να μας βγάλουν ασπροπρόσωπους..Να κατακτήσουν ότι δεν είχαμε τό σθένος να κάνουμε εμείς:να αντιδράσουμε στις συμβάσεις,να γίνουμε γιατροί,να γίνουμε "επιστήμονες",να έχουμε μια δουλειά με καλά λεφτά-στο τέλος τα πάντα καταλήγουν εκεί ,έτσι κι αλλιώς-στα λεφτά..Αυτό,το σημαντικότερο από όλα,δεν το καταλάβαμε ποτέ.Λεφτά και συμβάσεις αποτελούν τις δυο όψεις του ίδιου νομίσματος.Όποιος πιστεύει το αντίθετο ..όλο και κάτι μας κρύβει.
Κι έτσι,σήμερα,δραπετεύουμε μέσω των ηλεκτρονίων σε τόπους ιδεατούς και απόμακρους,ελπίζοντας πως -κάπου,κάποιος-θα γίνει συνκοινωνός των ιδεών μας και ίσως-ποιός ξέρει-ένας σύντροφος στον μάταιο τούτο κόσμο,που θα αποτελέσει μια πιο ευχάριστη δικαιολογία για να ξαναβρούμε τον χαμένο ύπνο μας...

Nothing Ever Dies - Kamelot

Here we are
Under the same old sun
All alone yet somehow bound and unified
Dust to dust...
Ashes to ashes won't take long
We search for a harbour
Somewhere to belong

They say that faith is all you need
To stay forever young
What you've sown is what you reap
Our sins can't be undone

There is a god in each society
So right is wrong where wrong is right
No one could be sure
Still we are certain
That what we know is truth
The only truth
We're building our temples taller

They say that faith is all you need
To stay forever young
What you've sown is what you reap
Our sins can't be undone

How can we trust them once again
They used to tell us lies
Their voices will sustain
Cause nothing ever dies

Love is the only truth
Pure as the well of youth
Until it breaks your heart
You took me higher
Than the mountains I have climbed
You waited all your life for me
You left me all alone behind
But we'll meet again
We will meet again

Soul Society - Kamelot

If my soul could revive
From my carnal remains
What does it matter to me
If it all fades to black
If I'm born once again
Then no one really is free
How could I be condemned
For the things that I've done
If my intentions were good
I guess I'll never know
Some things under the sun
Can never be understood

How can we believe in heaven
Human reason counters all
Ideas of a soul society
My life is just a fragment
Of the universe and all
There must be more than I can see

In the dark we're the same
In the concept of time
We're like a grain of sand
And we strive for the flame
As if death was our aim
Cause we cannot understand

How I wish there was heaven
All for one and one for all
A flawless soul society
Our lives are just a fragment
Of the universe and all
There may be more than we can see

When The Lights Are Down - Kamelot

Rules without exceptions last eternally
Every move you make creates your destiny
I've come to soak my sorrow in halo black
As black as the seal on my soul

Cause when the lights are down
There's no more to say
Love is the real pain
An internal revolution in our minds
And when the lights are down
You're so far away
Tell me your real name
In the silence of the darkness we unite

(Rules without exceptions last eternally
Every move you make creates your destiny)
What can protect me from the past
And all the things that I have done
She told me and then she was gone

But when the lights are down
There's no more to say
Deep in the shadows
Where the last of my delusions made a stand
Cause when the lights are down
She'll take me away
Tell me her real name
And in death we'll live the love we never had

Come all ye faithful beneath the moon
Into the void as one
Marching on

A Touch Of Blessing - Evergrey

Climbing walls of an endless circle
Walking paths you never heard of
Struggling in an endless battle
Searching for a higher purpose

Drowning in betrayals river
The freezing cold will make you shiver
Join the world of greater learning
Crown me king and be my servants

Mislead by beauty
One you rarely find
So loving and friendly
It's one of a kind

Their arms wide open
Willing to take me in
No doubts in choosing
A world free from sin

All the dreams I had
All my future wishes
Put aside for a greater journey
All the things I planned
Left my friends so coldly
Put aside for a
Higher...

Mislead by beauty
One you rarely find
So loving and friendly
It's one of a kind

One single army
Unite as one
A touch of blessing
Which cannot be undone

Drowning in betrayals river
The freezing cold will make you shiver
Join the world of greater learning
Crown me king and be my servants

All the dreams I had
All my failure wishes
Put aside for a greater journey
All the things I planned
Left my friends so coldly
Put aside for a higher purpose

Unspeakable

Unspeakable - Evergrey

In a time and a place where I had to bite my lip
To not be crying
Through the embers of the 2nd phase I had to
Chose another way of dying
And in dreams they come for you
Have they not come to see you too?
In silence flying through the room
Lonely thoughts try to conquering you

I want to help you but you never ask
And I want you to and I told you forever that
Why won't you tell me why you never laugh?
Cause I've told you forever you have to believe in me

Hand in hand through the worlds I try to conquer
I have fate walking beside me
And through halls of forgotten bliss I have to
Make a choice or die trying
And in dreams they come for you
Have they not come to see you too?
In silence flying through the room
Lonely thoughts try to conquering you

I want to help you but you never ask
And I want you to and I told you forever that
Why won't you tell me why you never laugh?
Cause I've told you forever you have to believe in me
Believe in me...

Why would you ever...

I want to help you but you never ask
And I want you to and I told you forever that
Why won't you tell me why you never laugh?
Cause I'll always hear you
I want to help you but you never ask
Cause I want you to and I told forever that I
Would always help you guide you when you're blind
Forever and ever
I want to help you but you never ask
And I want you to and I told you forever that
Why won't you tell me why you never laugh?
Cause I've told you forever you have to believe in me

At Loss For Words - Evergrey

Here we are once again
Time to choose at the crossroads end
Here we are stuck again
Time to speak or to forever be silent

It comes to a point where I can't take another lie
The day has finally come
Where I demand your silence
Comes to a point where I can't accept another lie
The day has finally come where I would die for your silence

At loss for words
And I'm short of breath
And in fear of truth I came to trust in you
What I demand of you is just to speak the truth
You've got your chance right now
Or to forever be...

It comes to a point where I will know you lived a lie
And I'm the first on my knees to accept my naivety
Comes to a point where I can't accept another lie
The day has finally come for you not me
To be...

At loss for words
And I'm short of breath
And in fear of truth I came to trust in you
What I demand of you is just to speak the truth
You've got your chance right now

Or forever be bleeding...
To forever be believing...
To hide from me...
And leave me alone...



Here we are once again
Time to choose at the crossroads end
Here we are stuck again
Time to speak or to forever be silent

At loss for words
And I'm short of breath
And in fear of truth I came to trust in you
What I demand of you is just to speak the truth
You've got your chance right now
Or to forever be...